Thursday, January 17, 2013

...flashback when the first time I met you...:)

Just a flashback moment when the first time I met you...
I never knew who you are...
A bestfriend told me that, she has a friend-who live just a few block from her home in the same area

Her : Ca, he smoke a lot, and I can't help of always inhaling his cigarette smoke while I was sitting beside him, he driving and smoking
Me  : I don't know which one is that guy, he smoked a lot...if you didn't comfortable with him, just dont get along with him, you still have many alternatives to get to the office without picking up by him

Until I finally knew which one is this person
a bald man, without hair (my type), yes he smoked a lot, and moreover often cuss while driving
I just laugh when he cussed while driving, I replace my friend's by sitting beside him and my friend at the back seat

until finally, we sat together in same group during company induction session
we talked a lot each other
I often follow your ride home, just because we get in to the same road
I was in relationship in that time (haha)
months never met you...
until I get back from my project and you were there in National Office,
"Hey...lets have lunch together", I said...
and we had lunch in BK with our other friend too...
I talked about my boyfriend and how hard my relationship is...
and you gave me your feedback

then...I asked you to go out...watching movies, watching the festival, the parade...
and always text you and ask about your opinion about this and that
you were so cold...
until months not met again..and I moved to Bali...
then met you again in middle of the year, you were a bit not that cold and start to be somebody to having fun with...
thus I took flight to Jakarta just to meet you, giving your request...pia legong...or whatever it is...hang out together, having quality time...
until finally, in a asked me to be yours, not that sweet but I really appreciate your honesty in that time
I hesitated, but my heart said go and get him...with all the risk, as long as we're both committed, all would be fine

I knew, it's hard for us to get into that place-where we're (ever) together, when I was yours and you're mine...
I should go anywhere and met many guys, and so did you
separate each other and finally met again...and separated (again)...

something always bring me back to you, no matter how far I go, no matter how far you're
it happened many times
and yes, took so long...

I have faith
no matter how hard it is...
I believe, that somehow, something would bring us back together

time to move on and focus to other things in the future
may my goodwill and this believe lead me to good things...
as long as I have faith


...Conspiracy Theory

Lastnight I have been have a bedtalk
well, bedtalk is something we used to talked or discused when we're already in bed...

I talked with a friend, let say he is a Freud thinking
asked me about what is wrong with you?
do you have nightmare, currently?
what's the dream about?
how often?

I stated about conspiracy theory
actually conspiracy theory has been apllied to political stuff
this conspiracy related to The Alchemist quote, Paulo Coelho

"When You Want Something, The Universe Cospires in Helping You To Achieve It"

You could call me stupid or whatever, I've been believing to this statement
It doesnt mean that if you want something you just watch and suddenly you there-in the place you want to be without doing any effort
I highlighted how our mind triggered and motivates everysingle things we do to be at the place we wanted to be

We want something, we make a pattern and justified so many efforts..
plus keep believing and praying
I believe, your subconcius would bring you approach something you want to achieve...
well this's not the exact thing, you might believe it or not
it depends on where you figure it out from your point of view

I never read 'The Secret'- the book that told a lot about this kind of view
But I do believe in Vission Board, Mindshare or whatever it is
It's not about you having a pin up posters, hanging on the wall, you watch it everysingle time you get to bed, and dreaming aboutt it...
It's about reminding you to stay focus to connect the stay in your pattern

I though it's logic enough
how do you think?

Monday, January 14, 2013

It's such belated greetings to say Happy New Year, all...

may 2012 give you more happiness and challenge
may 2013 welcome us with more lovely things and happiness as well
For me, there was something left last year
a sad thing, but...
ya, lets forget it for a while and start a brand new year with more challenge to be put on the list...

then here they are, my challenges for 2013
mostly point on Financial Saving and Getting new job and experiences...
I wouldn't forget to always put any believe (not hope) for him to get back home here in my heart
silly...but we'll see...

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