Saturday, August 13, 2011


its like rawwwrrsss...this polaroid is a bit cheap

grab it!

Fuji Instax Mini (old product but enough for nowadays fun)


...thank you, Dear... (realizing something moment)

just realizing something...

thank you for leaving, Dear
I've already realize, my life's better and more colorful, now without you
I've been back into my previous me
Its been so hard of being me before, but I do have been trying so hard of being previous me

one that was realizing me

the point is ...We're not in the same page
that's why its been so hard to understand each other, and finally...
we found the other that match with ourselves

funny things :)

Thursday, August 11, 2011

...He said I need a depresan or kinda therapy

I was thinking while had conversation with my bestfriend a view days ago

I told him that
I dont know why, my brain cant stop thinking, even at night
I spent my pre-sleep time for twitter and talk with my friends via bbm
while my body's tired and need some rest
my head may not stop thinking and directly asked my body to keep moving

keep moving...
keep thinking...
never stop moving...
never stop thinking...

one day, I woke up in the morning, on the weekend
my body's soooo tired, my back was really hard to move
but my brain start to move since 6 am

it happens more often
I pack a lot of things and productively thinking in my pre-sleep time

sometimes hard to just following my mind
mind and body
feels like both of them hard to be controlled

I've been never stop thinking even while I sleep

...and he begin to said

"you need some therapy or depresan, Hon..."

"you need some rest, get to sleep..."

by I even typing my blackberry while am sleeping

that's crazy

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

...In My Mind : Should I be a Mother???

I've been trying to build those dream for many times

anyway, when we was young..when we was a young woman, we have a lot of dreams
we set the target and on fire to catch it
you want this and that...being so ambitious and ignore your side

so do I...
I forgot to capture my vision board at home (will capture it while am home on august)

I want this and that

Master Degree...Strategic Planning thingy Tillburg University
Paris for exploring artstuff
Living in Manhattan
Having a Volkswagen
Manage my own business and gallery...

one thing I'd not sure

Should I be a mother??

I did not put a big ambition of being a Mom or having a kid
I dunno...

Far away before I watch Sex and The City and knowing that Cherry Bradshaw doesn't want to have a baby...I do realize am not that into being a mom...forgive me...

sometimes, i want to have a baby
but sometimes I rethough, probably it would not be that easy
hahaha random thoughts

can I just spent my whole life for traveling...?


So, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

...just for now...

I'am into this song very much
Have already knew since a couple years ago, while Lulu showed me the rehearsal of Imogen Heap's performance, I've definitely into this Song

Imogen Heap - Just For Now...

Soooo touchyyy...
I've been playing this song many times a day since last night..
LOve the lyric

Leave all our hopelessnesses aside

Can we just settle down?

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